Mixed emotions.

Have you ever been in a situation, where you should be sad, angry, upset and/or depressed, and yet you can't help but feeling excited? Happy? Relieved? To make matters worse, you find yourself surrounded by people showing the appropriate emotions (sad/angry/upset/depressed) and have to stifle your own emotions and play false!

Well, today my company announced to its employees that they are shutting the doors. (Well, technically, they're going to still do some stuff, but that doesn't include my department.) That means, yes, I have officially lost my job. I still have a week or two to continue dragging myself into work and pretending I care, but after that, I'm a free bird. I mean, I'm jobless. Yes, I should be upset.

But I'm actually excited! I've been working on my side business for a couple of months now, and I can't help but think that this might be my chance to make a go of it! To work from home! To do all the things I've wanted to do, but haven't because I work full time!

Well, I guess in the next month or so, we'll see what happens. After all, my little baby business might not be able to fill the large hole in our budget. But, I have to try.

Here's to new beginnings and optimism, whether I find myself a new business owner or a new employee somewhere.

I know we'll land on our feet!

- Cesia.

P.S. If anyone knows of a job opening for a graphic designer/production person/web person/technical know-it-all/jack of all trades, let me know. I should probably see what's out there, just in case.